With what does your heart wrestle?

Contentment is a topic that seems to revisit me often. I catch myself wanting this or that, change this or that, move here and there. I'll be happy once this, I'll be satisfied once that. I have always questioned myself lots of times as to why I struggle with my walk with God.  Why I have never been content or why I do not let myself be completely overwhelmed by His love for me. To have an intimate relationship with Him. I would wonder why I would not hear from God or why I never felt a "closeness" to God that I know is possible.  I have in the last year strengthened my relationship with Him but there is always something that is holding me back from giving my all, to completely surrendering. During church last Sunday something clicked.  I love Jesus and I have always had one hand holding onto Him but my other hand has been gripped tightly to my past and to the things of this world that I just could not let go. I guess the older I get and as a mother I see how unimportant things of this world really are.  This world will pass away.  Where my treasure is, there my heart will be. Have you heard of that song by Jeremy Camp..? You can have this world...just give me Jesus.  I must always find my roots buried in Him. That is the only place I will find true contentment, rest, and peace. 


"If I discover within myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis

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